Dum-Dum -------- I want to explode like a dum-dum bullet, leave my guts all over the floor, a liver here, intestines and blood there, brains everywhere, in a gore fest reminiscent of a midnight movie on channel eleven. I want to sever links to heaven, meet a pyrotechnic kung-fu end. I want an Iliadic battle scene, organs flying with spears, a Trojan fire viewed from ramparts, Cassandra's prophecy in parting tears, Agememnon's homecoming. I want a Battle of Hastings wasting, morning stars spinning on their sticks, chainmail oozing spleen and bile. Don't want an overdose, a quiet poisoning. I want a grand finale, a Busby Berkeley end, an Ester Williams dive into cement.