Their fans presumed them to be acid-high rock and rollers, the reality was they were health-oriented, vegetarian businessmen. Paul was a true romantic. He was always looking for Miss Right. Gene, on the other hand, did not believe that one woman could be all a man needed. He wanted to have as many women as he wanted, when he wanted them. He thought love and sex had little, if anything, to do with each other and talked about this a lot with me because he felt that I should experience the wonders of sex with him. I wanted to only have sex with someone I was in love with, someone who was monogamous. As the years passed, my kind of "perfect love" was not working out, and neither were the romantic relationships of my friends, like Paul. I started thinking I wanted to be more like Gene. His relationships were, at the very least, honest. I thought if I could have sex with someone I wasn't in love with, then maybe my romantic relationships might have a chance at lasting because there wouldn't be the same kind of emotional investment. So I told Gene I'd have sex with him. But the idea of close physical contact without being in love made me very sad. I remember starting to unbutton my blouse and crying at the same time. Gene told me to "forget it" Back to PhotoDiary