School still sucks, but I'm still on course to graduating! An amazing feat,
considering the things that've been going on in my social life. This whole
school thing had me so scared I'd numbed myself to all pain, just waiting
for the day when my grade report came in. And it wasn't half-bad. 8> In
case anyone's wondering why this is such a big deal to me, I've left the
old rant at the bottom here to inform the newcomers of what was
Incidently, I still want to know everything there is to
know, and I still think the school system is messed up, but at least for
the moment, I'm happy. 8>
The Old Rant
School sucks, to begin with. A majority of your life taken up to learn
things that you will not even get a lifetime to use. Don't get me wrong,
knowledge is important. I'm on a quest to learn everything there is to
know (I know that can't really happen) but I don't believe that the way
it's currently gone about is the right way. I don't know how I'd change
it, but I know I would. Some of my classes are great, and some make me
feel like worthless dirt. No class should ever make you feel like you are
sub-human scum. And up until about two days ago (the 3rd of November) I
actually still cared about school. Now I can honestly say I don't. What's
the point of getting a high GPA, when all you need is to pass to get a
diploma? Your GPA only affects you getting into more schooling. For those
of us where Grad School is monetarily not an option, and who don't have
the grades to get a scholarship, why bother to try. Especially if the professors
are going to act like jerks to you either way. And they do, believe me,
I've tried. I simply want it to all end. Let me out into the "real world"
and stop pretending I don't know what's out there. I've got a better grounding
in reality than some of my professors. A grounding in reality doesn't mean
lack of imagination. Anyone who knows me knows I have a very large imagination.
But I'm not a kid anymore. I often wish I was, but that ain't gonna happen.
If I can just pass my classes (jumping back onto topic) then perhaps I
won't have such a pessimistic view of things. That'd at least right one
of the worngs in my life.
And that's all I'm going to say about that at the moment.
to the Pit of Despair