I was 25 when I were sent to jail
while waiting to go to court I just wanted to get it over get my time and go to prison. It
was like I was ready to go and accept my Punishment. And then I can get out and start my
life all over again and then be a mother to my kid. I felt so stupid to choose Drugs over
my kids just because I got caught up in the fast life and that’s all matter to me at
that time. Because I were in my world buying Drugs when I could have been buying some
shoes of something for my kids. And depend upon other as my family to take care my kids
while I was in the street. And I didn’t think I need no one but in reality I did need
other. As my family. Since I became incarcerated I have became connected with my kids as a
mothering bond. They realize they can tell me anything. Regardless how it makes me feel
they don’t hold anything inside. I want my kids to feel that we have a connect and
yes Drugs will not be a part of my life even though that’s the last thing on my mind
LOST & FOUND
Marilyn W.,
Jobstart Participant
Dirty, unloved, unwanted, no good, bad or trouble
. Coming from abuse of all kinds such as:Physical/Emotional/Mental/Verbal
Oh yeah! Lets not forget
neglect and abandonment. This is what society has and is doing to our children. It is
happening in all walks of life. From those prominent families we would least suspect to
the lower class families. They want to know " what is wrong with the kids today."
Why are they so angry, rebellious and into so much trouble. They need to look deeper
inside of these kids. To find out what has made them become so angry or rebellious. They
certain weren't born that way. Could it be their way of survival through bad situations
because they don't know where or are to scared to go for help? Or could it be they are
lashing out because they are giving back the hurt and pain they must endure. Could they
possibly be hiding their shame and pain behind this mask of the tough image? And,
what about trouble? Do we ever stop to think they may be begging to get caught,
begging to get noticed or paid attention to in any way they can get it? Or, are they
merely trying to being accepted the only people or means that will accept them. NO! We
don't. We label tem as bad not caring why. Because aren't children to be seen and
not heard? After all their just kids. Right? They have no rights, no feelings, no
heart and no mind. Why! They should be immune to pain of all kinds. Right? Unfortunately,
this is the way most of our society view our children. They are labeled, thrown out,
locked away and forgotten about. And life goes on. The result of this, our
children become lost in it. Can't we please all take a small amount of our time to reach
out with love and compassion and understanding to try and save our "future?"
After all, don't they realize our children are "our future"? Won't you
please help to break this ugly cycle? Children are small people real human beings
with real hearts, feelings and minds that need our love and nourishment to develop into
someone great. They have real fears, doubts, pains and dreams just you do. They are like
the young bud of a flower. The better you nurturer it the more beautiful it becomes. My
prayer is this: "That you will look deep inside your hearts and reach out
to a child today with love and compassion to that lost innocent child locked away deep
inside himself/herself and help them to bloom into the flower they are and to know that
they are no longer lost but through your love and care are now found." Amen!
