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Its Friday evening and Im riding the 455 minibus back to my school, Nan Shan Waiguo Yu Xuexiao. Thats Chinese for Nan Shan (South Mountain) Foreign Language School. Right now, Im in Fu Tien district (I think), and I have a 40-60 minute ride in front of me.
I keep meaning to start my day right when I get up in the morning, but Im so busy it never works. Typically, my alarm goes off at 7:00, I shower and get dressed, and at 7:40 or so I go downstairs to the dining hall to get breakfast. Either that, or I eat in my apartment, while I hear all the kids outside singing "The East is Red."
I eat in my place a lot because the food here is really unpalatable. They eat a lot of chicken feet, pigs' ears, pigs' feet, congealed animal blood, animal stomach and stuff like that. I think Cantonese people like their food to look like the animal it comes from when it is on the plate, whereas Westerners feel the opposite. Here they leave the heads on a lot of things chickens, ducks, pigeons, shrimp and fish at least. They also like to leave the animals alive until the last possible minute. You choose it, then they kill it. One restaurant I went to had a peacock, ducks, chicken, fish, snakes, a rabbit and a cat waiting to be killed. A person who was with me tried to buy the cat, but the owner wouldnt sell it.
Im feeling irritated right now because Im too large to fit in the minibus seat. I cant sit with my legs in front of me; they have to lop over into the aisle.
Its bizarre that Im too big for public transportation. Im only 55. Im always hitting my head getting off the bus because the doorway is so low. People here are ultrashort. Most men are only about 53. In Beijing, people are much taller. The average man is 57 or 58, and about one out of twenty men is six feet tall or over. I think thats why people in Beijing are not that impressed by Chow Yun-Fat hes only a little bit bigger than average there, but compared to Cantonese men, hes a giant.
Today is a super smoggy day. The air is gritty. Im writing in here to distract myself, otherwise, I would get too nauseous. Ive been breathing through a folded tissue, and the part where my nostrils are is brown because of all the crap in the air.
Normally, Shenzhen is a lot nicer than this. Its sort of like a Chinese Las Vegas (but without gambling thats in Macao). There is tons of neon, and the streets are lined with palm trees. Its a Special Economic Zone there are lots of swanky malls and lots of people driving BMWs.
I was sad to have to leave Beijing. It's a crazy place, but it has a lot of soul. There is no way to describe how crowded it is -- about 14.5 million people live there. Rush hour is really incredible to see because the streets are totally full. Also, every kind of vehicle imaginable is on the road at the same time. There are cars, buses, 18-wheelers, bicycles, walking people and horse carts. Another peculiar thing about Beijing is that, at least around Beijing University, most people walk in the street because there are too many cars driving on the sidewalks! There seem to be no traffic laws, or at least no enforced traffic laws. Even city buses run red lights. There is a guard in front of the Beida (Beijing U.) west gate to make sure people dismount from their bikes before crossing into the campus, but no policeman to make sure people stop at the red light before the gate! Another interesting thing is that in America, if a car misses someones body by six inches, they become upset because the car almost hit them; here, I think the only thing that is important is that the car misses. Nobody seems to mind even when they narrowly escape being run down.
Another important thing to mention is that in Shenzhen I feel a lot less "at home" than in Beijing and a lot more on guard because of the way people look at me (us) here. In Beijing, people stared at me out of curiosity, like people in America would stare at a punk rocker. It was like I was something novel and interesting. Here there is more of a feeling of hostility, like, "Oh, a WHITE person." I wonder if it has something to do with the British being in South China? Anyway, it makes me uncomfortable.
Im tired a lot. I teach 19 classes a week 15 of primary, four of junior 1. Its all a big mistake! I was prepared and coached to teach senior high school students, and then I was sent here because it was assumed this school was a zhongxue or gauxue (middle or high school).
Instead I got second grade and fifth grade! I can cope with fifth okay, but the second graders drive me crazy! Im in a room with 45 Chinese seven and eight year olds and I have never taught children before! They get SO noisy its deafening and I cant teach. They dont understand much English AND a lot of them have Cantonese as their first language, whereas I only speak some Putong Hua (Mandarin). I write characters and draw pictures on the board to help them learn, but sometimes it is a total fiasco.
The kids give me lots of weird gifts, mostly pictures. One girl gave me a picture of me dressed as a Dutch woman, and another girl gave me a picture of me on which she had written, "This is you, sister!"
There are a few kids who stand out Wanda, Angel and Mamie, none of even come up to my belly button. There is Pearl (or as she spells it, Paerl), who has been burned over maybe 70% of her body but is not self-conscious about it. There are other kids who want to carry my books and look through my stuff.
I have very little free time. Usually there are only one or two periods per day when Im not teaching. On a normal Tuesday or Thursday, I start teaching at 9:15, then teach three second grade classes. This past week we did parts of the body. They were all very excited to learn the words for "belly button" and "bottom." On Thursday, in my year 2, class 3 (the worst one), the kids kept screaming "PI GU!" (butt) because I drew a picture of a naked baby on the board with an arrow pointing to its bottom. This other American teacher came into my classroom for a minute. His Chinese name is Mr. Ma, and he used to teach second grade but now just teaches chorus. He is an evangelist! Apparently he is bankrolled by some Christian group in Colorado. He sort of preaches to the kids, which is illegal, but apparently nobody notices or minds. After the end of class one of the kids came up to me and said, "Miss Mary, is Mr. Ma your daddy?" They have also asked me if the English lady who teaches in the kindergarten is my mommy. I get really furious with 2.3, and this little girl came up to me at the end of class and gave me another picture of me, which had written on it in Chinese, "Please dont get angry." So I felt guilty.
(excerpt from Daybook2)
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