I was raised Catholic but stopped going to church in my teen years.
At age 40 I began to wonder what I was working so hard toward and was
it worth it, since I was only going to die anyway? I went to the library and
brought home lots of books looking for answers. I stared at this
hugh pile of books on my kitchen table and got discouraged
thinking - I will be dead before I begin to find any answers. Then I
thought instead of looking in the books for answers that if there
really is a God then I should ask him for the answer. I said a short
prayer, it went something like this - Dear Lord if you are real
please let me know it.
The next night I was preparing a bath for my baby and I was not even
thinking about God or the answers to life, when all of a sudden I felt
something very powerful in the room with me. Then I began to have a
life review - saw events in my life where I was hurting people yet I
was unaware of this - it made me feel very sad - I wanted a chance to
do something about this but I thought then that I was dying and this
was it. Then after the life review, I heard God say to me
"Do you understand what is happening to you?" I didn't fully
understand but I understood that this was God showing me my life and
so I said yes. Then He asked "Do you understand the consequences of
your sins" by this questions I felt that I had blown it somewhere in
life and I was going to hell and so I answered yes. Next question
was " Do you understand that you will be eternally separated from your
children"? I was horrified when I heard this because I had never
realized that I could have spent eternity with my children. I think
of myself as an extremely caring and loving person towards others,
yet I was getting the worse sentence that I could imagine, never
seeing my children again.
Then I started to fall down a dark void. When I got to the bottom ,
the speed at which I was dropping decreased. Soon I was hovering
over flames, suspended in the air. I heard the sound of a soul
scream out in torment. I was scared beyond belief, knowing that soon
I too would be where this person was. I called out for someone to
help me, I called for my mother, my husband and a neighbor but all
there was was silence. I thought how much we all need each other and
now I could no longer call upon anyone and how much I had taken
others who had come to my aid for granted. Then I started to think
about a sign I had seen a few months earlier which said "Are You
Saved, Only Jesus Saves" - being Catholic I had never heard this
expression before and did not know what it was referring to. Then I
started to see a pinpoint of light beginning to pierce though the
darkness, it grew larger and larger and soon spelled out the words
Jesus Christ. I looked and thought - Jesus - so what - he was just a
man. Then I began to put words together Jesus - savior - I thought
Savior from what, for what? Then - SAVIOR - OH MY-maybe Jesus can
save me and I screamed out JESUS SAVE ME. All of a surdden I was
pulled out of the the dark hole and was put in biblical times. I saw
all of biblical history in the twinkling of an eye. I then said -
WOW - this stuff really happened - Jesus - the crucifiction - Jesus
was God - He was really God. Get me out of hear I have to go tell
the world. Then boom I was right back in the room in the same spot
with the towel in my hand and no time had passed.
I called my neighbor - she brought over a bible and I started reading
it and saw in the bible all the stuff I had seen in the vision - at
that point I was really convinced that there is a God and so I think
that God answered my prayer.
I started going to church after that and I read the bible (New
Testament) over at least 5 times.
It was explained to me at chruch about Jesus being a sacrifice for
our sins. I had heard it growing up but did not get the full impact
until this experience.
It was interesting to me to hear that you also had experienced
somehing similar. You are the first one I have encountered that had
a similar experience.
I'll keep praying for you.
Carmie Wrote Later:
I had the same feeling, that we are all connected to one another. I
was able to communicate with God through mental telepathy. I would
hear Him speak and then I would think my answer back to Him. I
could not see him. I was shown things that I was doing that were
hurtful to others and I was not aware that I was hurting them.
Like you, sometimes I wonder if what I saw was simplyl a figment of my
imagniation, yet I know it was really real. One reason I know it had
to be real is because the stuff I saw in the vision was in the bible
and I had never read a Bible prior to this experience. I am almost
certain now that there is a God 99% sure, no 100%. I just wish he
would show me a cure for my fibromyalgia and your plantar fascitis.
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