(name changed)
Cathy (my girlfriend) has had an NDE after being brought in to the first-aid
room of a hospital in Holland. I don't know if it is essential to mention
that she had tried to commit suicide (pills). She was unconscience when
she was found at home and was brought to the hospital like that.
She remembers to have seen her body lying in the first-aid room, viewed
from a high corner near the ceiling; the medical staff was working hard
on her 'body', details from this were precisely given by her afterwards
without ever having seen the room before or later. She felt quite neutral,
even when she heard a doctor or nurse say: 'Oh, there she goes again'.
Then she had an experience like travelling through a dark tunnel, seeing
to the right of the end of the tunnel a female person, dressed in white,
with dark hair. Then she saw IT, the music and colors that were undescribably
beautiful and a light with such an intense beauty and mildness as never
before. She was not allowed to go through. All of a sudden she found herself
again at the entrance of the tunnel, where it was dark, there was no sound
at all. She felt like being one of the many who were there, walking around
and around, being doomed to do so eternally. It was the worst thing that
a person can ever experience. There was suffering, pain, remource, guilt.
The 'many who were there' were without any body-form like we know, they
merely looked like little packets or little dull colored balls and were
to her belief rapists and murderers. One of these 'packets' was sort of
allowed to leave this place without her knowing exactly how and by whom.
She envied this 'entity' for it, the suffering was unbearable. She does
not know how long she has been there, she awoke in the IC-unit of the hospital,
tied to her bed.
This experience has influenced her life tremendously, changing everything
that was before. People told her later that her stories about the whole
hospital-thing were rather incoherent, but one aspect remained always the
same, her NDE. Does this indicate something what we could call a hell ?
Is this what was made clear to her: change your life or look what will
happen when you die ?