Scott,
I have shared my combined near death experience and after death communication
that occurred years ago with quite a few people. It seems to have helped
others. Please feel free to use it if you think it would be helpful to
others. Thanks for the great WWW site and the wonderful work you are doing.
Please feel free to identify me by: Tim-Chicago.
If you need more info, you know where to reach me.
Best wishes,
Tim TimVezeau@AOL.com
Visit By My Deceased Father
In brief, my story began about sixteen years ago. I was divorced at the time
and was living in Chicago in a condo. I was dating a lot, but basically I
felt quite lonely. My two sons were living with their mother in a suburb of
Chicago.
One night, I was feeling generally depressed and, to obtain some relief,
ingested too many intoxicants. I was alone, in the dark, sitting on my
living room couch. I knew I was near death and felt that if I went to sleep,
I would not awaken. I soon felt the presence of my father, who had been dead
for about ten years, in my condo. I did not see him, but I knew he was there
in the dining room. This was quite unusual because I had not been
particularly close to him while he was alive and, since his death, I had
never felt his presence before. I knew he was there to help me. He was not
there to be judgmental. I did not hear anything audible from him, but,
basically telepathically, he held out a choice for me. I understood that if
I joined him in the dining room, I would be dead and he would help me with
the transition. There was no fear on my part. He was not influencing me to
make a decision one way or the other. He was just there to help me if I
needed it.
I was very tempted to walk into the dining room and join him. I thought
about it and decided it would be far too selfish on my part to leave my two
young sons, whom I loved very much. So I decided not to go into the dining
room. I soon became aware that I no longer felt his presence. After several
hours, I was fine.
At the time, I thought this was a very interesting event; but I really did
not appreciate its full significance. It wasn't until 1994 when I was trying
to deal with the loss of my youngest son that the event many years ago with
my father became much more meaningful for me. I was trying to find out "why"
and to deal with the deep sorrow a parent feels when a child dies. Somehow,
I began to read about paranormal events and phenomina of all types. I
couldn't read fast enough. Some things I simply could not believe. However,
what moved me the most was the research by very serious and apparently well
qualified researchers into Near Death Experiences. A whole new world opened
for me that gave me comfort, understanding and hope. I continue to study
NDE's and (to a much lesser extent) other paranormal phenomina. I have come
to terms with the loss of my son. I still miss him dearly, but I do feel he
is happy and is growing spiritually elsewhere. He has visited me on about
four occasions in very vivid dreams. In one that was particularly vivid and
moving, he told me (in a much more caring and mature tone than he had when he
was alive) that he was fine and that he did not mean to hurt me as much as he
did by his death. I do consider those visits with my son to be precious
gifts.
My own "NDE" years ago with my father validated the materials I have read and
the near certainty (perhaps, 95%) that death is not the end and, therefore,
should not be feared.
Sometimes I get concerned that I cannot be 100% certain in my own mind that
death is not the end. I have concluded that the small amount of uncertainty
is the price we pay for being human. If we could know with absolute
certainty that a wonderful experience awaits us upon the death of our bodies,
perhaps as humans we would accomplish very little. We would simply sit back
and wait for the "good life" to follow.
Well, that is the story of my NDE that became very meaningful to me years
later when I was mentally and emotionally able to focus on it.
I hope it is meaningful and helpful to you.
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